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Comic Con 2008 [April 20 2008 12:22pm] I woke up yesterday morning at 5:50am. Why? Because I, Maritza, was going to Comic Con at the Jacob Javits Center in Manhattan. I was up, dressed (in black clothes and yellow tights), and ready to go.   Antonio and I got there a little after 8:30am. It was quiet. It was clean. It was awesome. I got the tickets (for Sophie and I) and Antonio bought his. We walked around, and found the DC Talent Orientation. At around 10 aomthing, Sophie called me cause she was just getting there. So as I ran upstairs and out to go meet up with her, Stan Lee, mofo-ing STAN LEE walks right right right right by me! ME! I actually stopped walking to meet Sophia cuz I was dumbstruck. I was just standing there, covering my mouth as I giggled so stupidly. But it was STAN LEE! Anyway....the DC comics thing- you had to sit there and attend it in order for your portfolio to be reviewed. It was so boring. So boring. I didnt learn anything, but could hear the room next door [that was housing Stan Lee for his q&a]. After the DC thing, I found Antonio (since we separated) and walked around. Quite frankly, as I try to blog all of this, it's quite difficult because it felt like it happened in a blur. We met up with Sophie, and later with Kreg, and I met the adorable Mel...she's so cute. I dropped off my work at the DC booth. I spent two hours on the Tokidoki line just to get Simone Legno's [designer/creator of Tokidoki] autograph [such a pain in the neck, that line was]. Sophia and I stole a special limted edition toy from the booth [we're evil, i know] and finally got to meet Simone Legno.  I had him draw Terri a lamb, since she was the annoying voice in my head reminding me he was going to be there. And he drew me a bow. I took too many stickers [4 per person my ass!]the rest of my drawings to some comic book artists in the Artist Alley for their professional opinions as to what I should do to get into the business, got the same feedback I've heard before from non-comic book artists [which as soon as i can, i will apply for a loan or something and look into art school...you happy now, Alicia? lol] The School of Visual Arts was there too, and I talked to them for a while.   Oh! I went to the Leonard Starr [creator of Thundercats, amongst others]  panel with Irwin Hasen, who Mr. Hasen did nothing but call Mr. Starr an S-O-B, and told the story of how he lost his virginity! It was like sitting in a room with your grandparent and one of their friends and listening to them talk about the old days...which I really love, i love old people and their stories! Hmm...what else?   I took a picture with a Storm Trooper, Rogue (love her), Mr. T, and this oh-my-god-hot man in a bio suit. He was the ultimate in hot. Creamy Jeans!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I look totally stupid in that picture, but ugh, he is so hot. His hotness cancels out my idiocy  in the photo. It was an amazing day! I cant believe I went to Comic Con! I'm going next year, except the entire weekend. So much swag, so much to see. One day is not enough. As soon as I get home, I will upload the pictures. It was awesome. Thanks to Sophie, who kept me sane. Kreg & Mel...are just awesomeness. It was just insanity, but with way hot guys and [not hot] girls in outfits they shouldnt be wearing. VIEW ADD

triste/joli -- comme ce comme ca [April 05 2008 10:48pm] This week has past by way too fast, but not fast enough. I've done nothing but apply to more than a dozen jobs in the last 4 days. I'm in dire need of a better job/second job. I dont know. I hate complaining about it, but here i am doing something about it, and nothing is coming up. Plus I hate when people dont respond to emails. Ugh, drives me mad.  Besides that, I'm sending my tax payment thingamajig check on monday. Good riddance. Other than that, Sophia and I watched some movies the other day. That was fun. I bought a lamp in the shape of the Effiel Tower. It's lovely. Makes me want to just drop everything and go sell my stuff and go abroad. Bleh.     Yesterday was weird. I was hanging out with my brother, and we went to the galleria while the car was parked at the city center. we went to the galleria with the intention of getting some food, since the city center's only problem is their lack of food choices. We ran into Terri and Anthony. They had just gotten there when we had. so we decided to eat together, which was a bad idea. Terri reacted badly to an observation Wally had made, and since she was being moronic, she continued to bring up her verbal/grammatical error which only made wally point out she was to begin with. She glared at him and sat silently, in her victim-like way as if he did it to hurt her. He just made an observation. but considering how time is has been/people have been, it's clear some are just changing. I must say I was quite disappointed in her behaviour. She knows what my brother is like, she knows how he plays around. He was actually happy to see her, and she was just so cunty. I was infuriated, but I think I kept it well hidden til later when i text-confronted her about it. She replied it was because she was so tired from the evening before. Which is no excuse. On top of that, it was my brother she was being a cunt to. Sorry, but my brother comes first, especially when he hasnt done anything wrong.  I also must say i love how terri had to look at anthony to see if it was okay for her to laugh at whatever funny thing was said. It's sad. She's one of THOSE people. You know, those people who check with their significant others to see if it's okay to react to something. Her whole way about her was so awkward yesterday,  from seeing us at first to sitting there acting all hurt about a stupid observation about BACON. Say it with me: BACON. Ridiculous.         What bothers me more lately is her clear jealously/resentment [choose one] in tone when I mention any plans concerning Sophia and I. Meanwhile, has she even bothered to call me just to see how I am like she used to when she wasnt dating Anthony? no. Why should she? She has a boyfriend, and clearly her 'best friend' has taken the backseat. Which is fine. i'm happy if she's happy. But her tones make it seem like I shouldnt be hanging out with other people, while she can continue to ignore my existence, since she's the one with a boyfriend. Ugh, I hate how much she's become one of those people. And if I DONT CALL HER TO HANG OUT, she DOESNT call me to hang out. Whatever, it's cool. Really it is. And isnt. But it's her thing, and hopefully it'll last. I dont say that in a mean way, but in a geniunely honest way.       I guess I needed to rant about that. But what bugged me more was that she called me a "traitor" just because I was nice to someone she hates. Whatever, this person did me a favor, and what was I supposed to say, "hey give me that, now fuck off."?? I dont know, she really irked me yesterday. Other than that, I'm going to bed.             VIEW ADD

Pas de tu. I'm still optimistic. [March 27 2008 8:38pm]  Things arent going as I thought they would be. Although, admittingly enough, I never had a preconcieved notion about it. Really, I didnt. Of course, I'm talking about the country club. I cant really wait for it to pick up, or be 'busy'. Either way, there wont be enough money to go around just my working on weekends. I'm definitely going through with the whole bartending thing. I start my night classes on April 10th. I have to pay for it next week, which means I cant spend a lot of what i already dont have of my paycheck. It's very cheap, so I cant complain. I know the bartending wont be much either, but it IS more hours, tips and such. For now it's the thing to do.      I spent all day today researching the 'art scene' in Yonkers. In the time that I last looked stuff up, a whole bunch of websites sprang up supporting the scene. Although, I havent seen much evidence to support the theory of an art scene. Plus, i have to admit, all the stuff I see is from these old fuddy artists. Which really irks me. Where are artists my age? Creating themselves some harsh or idealistic world in which they rule? I feel like I'm constantly alone in that. I hate that I have no scene, at least art wise. It really makes me mad.  So I emailed some fuddy artists for advice on how to get my work noticed. That tactic didnt work the last time I tried it, but maybe someone will at least be nice enough to tell me to fuck off, as opposed to no response.     Blah. I have to tell the country club I wont be able to work there for the rest of the summer. Ugh. It's such an easy job, but there arent enough hours. I do need to make money. I wish I could do it with my art, but it's difficult with absolutely no contacts, and with no one that will buy what I make, which sucks. I know there's an audience. How do I find them? UGH. I hate this, what I'm doing. I'm thinking. And too much about the future, at that. I hate when I do that because I start to worry and fret about my future, if i have any, and i wonder if I'll end up destitute. Which wouldnt be nice. I have too high a penchant for foreign fashion magazines and MAC make up. I must stop worrying. But what about my future?    I want to be an artist. That's my entire goal. Honestly.  I want to sell my work, and be known for it.  That's all. That and traveling around the world on the money that I make from the art.     I would love to use my photography for it, more than anything. I happen to think I'm damn good with a camera. And currently, my photos are being used in blogs and articles on the internet. I'm proud of that, but how do I turn that around so that I can get paid for it? Hmmm.. I need to start an art scene. The one that i found was very old, with people who just restore paintings and ugh, are just old. Not current. Not now. Not young and pulsating with the ridiculous passion to just fucking create! Ugh. There are a couple of events I must attend. Just to even get my feet wet. I'll figure this out, I have to. Art is my life. And I really do refuse to go to school for it. It's ridiculous. Pas De Tu!  I did the college thing. Twice. I hated it. I only went for the people and the hanging out. Ugh. pas de tu, pas de tu. I refuse, plus I have NO money for that. So even if I wanted to, this nigga bitch is briz-oke.  More than anything I need money for August and November. That's all. And art supplies. Oh and foreign magazines. VIEW ADD

Yelle @ Maroquinerie, Paris | 25.04.2007 [March 23 2008 10:14pm] Yelle @ Maroquinerie, Paris | 25.04.2007 Originally uploaded by Rod | Le-hibOO.com i love yelle. I'd love her for her haircut alone. VIEW ADD

i adore this. [March 22 2008 9:58pm]   drawn by me. you should see the picture at my flickr.  It's pretty rad. now the question is, who would buy this?  [besides me] VIEW ADD

quiet [March 22 2008 9:23pm] I finally had some time, and some quiet in my usually noisey home to sit and just click clack away.     Work at the country club has been hellish. In the sense that it is so boring. And at times, I dont really want to be indoors all summer, but considering, that for the time being, it is money in my pocket (yea right) I guess i will just stay put for a lil while...the whole summer, of course. I know it will pick up soon, and soon i will have nothing but entries about how members drive me up the wall with their catty attitudes, but for now i sit in a chair, answer the phone, and continue to draw. I've drawn so much and come up with some great t-shirt ideas. I really cant wait til i have a paycheck, where some of it will go into materials, and such. I just need people to buy my stuff. I'm hoping that there will be an audience for what I do. I mean I constantly get stopped on the street/ complimented for the things i wear, or accessorize with, so maybe there are a bunch of other Maritzas out there. and most of the stuff i do wear I either buy and then customize, or i do make myself.    Here's hoping.  Along in designing some things, i created a family and they're set in the victorian era. The drawings are absolutely outrageously cool. I am quite proud of them, and will also be featuring them on t-shirts and such.   You can, for the time being see the mother and father, newly married right here:     http://www.flickr.com/photos/mitzabot_goes_boom/ I'm really proud of my work and the journey it's taken since i was a child. I hate how stupid and selfish it sounds, but ugh, I've got mad skills! I also drew some Twilight characters, although I'm missing Jasper, Edward, Charlie, Renee, Esme, and Carlise. I'll probably draw those tomorrow at work. I also wish i remembered how to make a watermark for my drawings. Especially the Twilight ones. Speaking of, i saw the new shots of the film shooting and oh my god, i almost had a heart attack. Such small things make me the happiest girl in the world. Other than that, life is life, moving, and shall i just say at a slowwwwwwwww pace. I felt like February would never end, and despite having felt March fly by, this ending of the month seems never ending. I dont know. I hate my horoscope by the way.  The one by Susan Miller?  Yea...no, she sucks! She made me anticipate and love the idea of what was going to happen in March, and nothing happened! Literally, nothing has happened. I dont normally put much stock into horoscopes but her last month horoscope was insanely on point. Regardless, I feel like everything is happening too slow. My life, my love life (or lack thereof), my creative and professional life, it just seems so blah. I hate feeling blah, I then feel so useless.      Easter is tomorrow, and the holidays feel like a blur to me now. I can actually remember when I looked forward to all these things and now it's literally like "Oh..it's Easter tomorrow? Really?"  Meh. i feel like artistically I'm surging, that i've got so much to do and offer, but with absolutely no time, nor sources to accomplish what i see in my head, which if i could make real, i think i'd be somewhat known, at least by indie hipsters or something. Like that's all great, but the rest of me feels so lazy. No, not lazy, maybe forgotten. Not by me, though.    Either way, i will continue to strive and create. I have so much passion for everything, at times I'm afraid I'll burn myself out.  VIEW ADD

the love of my life. [March 13 2008 6:50pm]   I loves. VIEW ADD

cherub rock [March 11 2008 12:07am]     I had a strange dream last night, and this morning when I woke up and fell back to sleep. The first one had to do with fashion, and I was on Project Runway, and I couldnt sew, like I didnt have a lot of time, but I just couldnt sew. I dont know if it was me lying to them, or at that moment my sewing skills went somewhere, but i couldnt bring myself to sew. And it was in a basement, or a bunker. It was somewhere in this house. Very weird.   My second dream, had to do with someone I know. They texted me to go to dinner and movie with them. I remember holding my phone and seeing the brightly lit lcd screen with the message for all of that on a Thursday night. I remember the sensation in my dream of smiling. I remember the sensation of being really happy with the text message and person. When I woke up, I tried to push it out of my head because it'll just have me hoping that, that actual person will text me that. Which wont happen. Why? Because, that's why. I mean, I know for legit facts that this wont happen. But still, no hope in getting my lil heart ready to soar when it'll just get shot down again.  how meh. And where the hell is my anonymous reader, huh? Where are you?! It really is doing my head in, that I dont know who you are, but you know me and people who have known me. Unless of course, it's a prank, in which case, keep reading, but quit commenting. blah, all of a sudden i'm in a pissy mood. grr. VIEW ADD

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